Post covid era and coping mechnics

 Covid has brought a new era at homes. I always thought that drastic things can happen if people are in a pressure cooker for long periods of time like this. But unlike my expectations, this hasn't happened. No one is jumping off their balcony, no one has murdered her husband, no kids have ran away. People strangely enough stuck together.

Have you ever felt like being in a jail? every thing is closed and stuck. God is behaving strangely. Concentration is flimsy. even 10 seconds is heavy. I am also an entrepreneur, so I am lonely while working too.

Husband is exhausted of me, he already hates my decisions and doubts my capabilities. Mother is deeply disappointed with me. She thinks that even the political situation in country, her health, poor taste of food, idiotic helps, bad weather, failed relatives, loss in finances etc. etc. is because of me. She feels that while I could have been all powerful, who could have helped her in the gruelling thing that life is in general. But I have just been wasting my time in lost ventures. She never really asks me how is it going, she only assumes its all shit. She can't hear me anymore. Its all one way.

Well, the state of matter is truely sad. When I look around, people look sad too but somehow nothing is changing. We have started believing that this is all we have got. This is best possible. Earlier people used to blame the government, but its not allowed anymore. 

In USA, there is a strange belief that we are near end of time. Even in those kind of serials they are leave few survivors.